HW 17 - First Thoughts on the Illness & Dying Unit

When I think of Illness & Dying several things come to mind. I think of the way the person died, and whether or not they lived their lives to the fullest. Growing up I was scared of death because I truly believed that you were sleeping when you die. I would cry about death and finally someone explained it to me. My mom explained that you never know when your time is going to end, people can be alive one day and gone the next so you should take one day at a time. There are many causes of death and some may seem less painful than the others. For example if I were to die I would want to die as painless as possible so I would rather not be burned or have any other slow and painful death.

In my future I aspire to be a Pediatrician so I have an ambivalence towards hospitals. I believe that hospitals can be a place of healing but sometimes the answers we find are not very pleasant to hear. I love being in hospitals because they make me want to do everything I possibly can to save lives. Hospitals provide doctors many attempts to do everything they can to save lives. I really like hospitals because I love the smell of gloves and I love helping people. There are some doctors that care but just like this world there are many people that could care less. We depart from this earth when we have lived our lives accordingly and some people have yet to fulfill all they need to accomplish, meanwhile some people already have.

I remember a time when I was really sick. I was vomiting and my head was spinning so all I wanted to do was sleep. My family was really worried about me because I had a very high fever. They constantly stood by me waiting to see what would happen next and for some reason I didn't like that feeling. It comforted me to know that I have a family that cares but I didn't appreciate the worried looks they were giving me. They stood by me as if this were my last moment. I like it when they give me my space and only come if I really need them. I wouldn't want my family members to be scared for my life. I know that death is unavoidable and that when it's our time to go we will go, but I want to live every day as if it were my last.